Somehow, this week was more tiring than RSAC week, even if I didn’t have to go to the conference part. This week HumanX was in town and that shit is like 4k and you don’t get any sweet free tickets from giant companies trying to trade $149 for a lifetime of emails, or at least I didn’t see any. They had some free tickets for startups but you have to be approved and I’m not at that stage yet.

BSides / RSAC week was an “information gathering” week so I was mostly in observation, note taking, and question all my life decisions mode but this week I had to work. So that was a lot of brain thinking and why isn’t this one thing working and retesting a ton of shit and while still writing articles and summarizing my case studies. A couple nights I stayed up all night then I went to afterparties and ended up coming home super late and then working again. It’s a slippery slope so I have to really be on top of my dopamine regulation. Luckily I finally got it stable after RSAC just in time for HumanX week so it’s all out of wack again lol sighhh…

A couple nights ago I went to a bunch of things and somehow ended up at some bar. Right before I went in I was telling the bouncer how I hated going to these things and he said I’d be alright. My friend came out to meet me there and I somehow managed to get invited to dinner and wait a second, isn’t that the whole point of these things? Like a moron I declined. I wasn’t thinking about what the implications of that meant, and what kind of connections I would be making and, oh good why don’t you just pass up a chance to get out of this loud ass room and have a real conversation and find out if the results of your RSA experiment are true in real time? No? We’re not going to do that? We’re going to pass on that? OK. Don’t worry I already kicked myself for that one. Luckily she left before I got her information so that was great. The bouncer came back in to tell everyone they were going to open the place up to the public now so to grab your bags. As he went by telling everyone, he asked me how I was holding up? I don’t know lol.

I was talking to one guy at that same event and after a while he was like, “What’s with all the different questions?” and I told him that if I wanted to know about your company I’d just look you up. I’m trying to see if you’re cool to work with or partner with or buy from. Let me find out if you are fake AF. Filter the person first, not the pitch. THAT’S IT. THAT’S THE FILTER.

Last night I went to this event that was packed full of people and it was super hot and the drinks weren’t free which was weird, I’ve literally never been to an afterparty where you had to pay for drinks or food. I was super cranky because I already didn’t want to be there and I was already coming from a different event so when my friend texted me about his $23 drink I was like what.

Anyway, I’m still glad I went. It was INTERESTING AF. I made a lot of good connections, and the people I met were genuinely amazing. I know I always complain about this shit but every event I go to I meet a lot of really cool people.

Also I THOUGHT WE WERE INTROVERTS. Am I the only who remembers that WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE INTROVERTS? Has TELEVISION and MEDIA lied to me? WOULD THEY DO THAT? T_T! Maybe I’m confused because I don’t know how we’re supposed to have meaningful conversations when I’m listening to music at max volume in a sardine packed room where it’s sweaty and I’m dying.

It’s still fun though.

Sometimes.

Drinks I didn’t buy: All of them
Times I thought what the fuck actually is my life: All of them
People I met that were genuinely cool AF: All of them
Literal AGI OG Geniuses that invited me to get a dosa: 1